my story..

ktma · 10-02-2008, 07:29 AM

There once was a girl, who dreamed of finding love, that companionship only between you and your significant other. She one day thought she had found it. She and this boy started hanging out, soon becoming a couple.
One day she was sitting with him, and his friend in his friends room. This is where the trouble began. They were all involved in a gang. He pushed her into the closet, knocked her on the floor and rapped her, right infront of his friend. So afraid to even move, she remember's the look in his friend's eye, almost as if he was enoying it. After that struggle, she believed deep in her heart that it would never happen again. A few day's later he pushed her behind his apartment building and started trying to have sex with her. This time she threatened to scream, he dared her too.. She did, next thing she know's hes pushing her face first into a concrete building. She breaks away from him and walks a few miles to a friends house, not sure what to do.

A few day's later he calls and appologizes, she goes back with him. They're standing in their neighbor's kitchen when he comes up behind her with a knife, and puts it too her neck. he whispers in her ear.. if you ever leave me, ill kill you, as he begin's to push the knife against her neck harder. Scared to do anything she just stands there until he leaves.

A week or so goes by and she gets a call from his other girlfriend. They decide to go over there together to try to solve things. Bad idea, as soon as she leaves, he beats her. Black eye's and a sprained wrist. She goes to school each day covering up the bruises.

One day hanging out in his basement, he leaves for a little bit while his brother is still downthere. He tells his brother something in spanish and leaves up the stairs. His brother then turns to the girl and starts rubbing her leg. She freaks out and starts to yell at him. Smack, she is laying on the bed, blood comming down her face as he then gets on top. She doesnt' even struggle it. She figures its what she deserves.

The same instance happened with the other brother.

Afraid to turn to any cop's, for it is either one after her, or many more. So she stayed quiet for year's. When she finally finds someone else, and he finds out, he pushes her right behind that same apartment building, trips her on the ground and holds her there. She fights, she's done being pushed around, he knocks her once and then puts hickeys all over her neck for her boyfriend to see. That is the end of that relationship. She thought she was safe.

One night while sitting at home, he shows up. There is no one else there, she lets him come inside thinking thing's might be different. They weren't.
He gets her upstairs, and rapes her in her moms bed.

A few months down the road, thing's begin to die down a little bit. She believes that all of the abuse and rape's are over with. No, not even close. One night while walking out the end of the path to go to the driveway, he knocks her down with some sort of blunt object, she turns to see him standing there just smiling. She fights back and tries to punch him. He knocks her again and now shes stuck on the ground and can't even move. She wants to scream but nothing will come out of her mouth. he slowly gets on top of her and does it again.

For a few day's everynight he would be out there.

One night when it died down again for awhile, she started to carry a knife on her. Hoping he would come back so she could stab him. She finally got her chance and he took the knife from her by blind siding her with a fat lip and a baseball bat to the side. He took the knife and sliced her stomach, her leg and her face. Almost as if he was just playing around with her. The scar's still are there to this day.

To this day, this girl is terrified to walk outside her own house, to even be inside her own house. To walk around her own town. She feel's safe no where.

He still appears almost every night,
The beatings get worse each time,
but somehow she can cover it up so no one can tell.
Everynight she pray's for him to go away.
But her prayers are never answered.
That is most of my story.
Almost like a horror movie.

sarah2 · 10-02-2008, 06:55 PM

Is this still happening?
Because if it is, we can help you get out of this situation.
I know it feels like there are no ways out, but if you try hard enough, you can escape this.
I hope and pray that you are safe.

Broken_mind · 10-02-2008, 08:37 PM

Yeh there are some things that can be done if we trread carefully
I hope your safe tonight xxx

ktma · 10-03-2008, 05:39 AM

there isnt anything to be done anymore..
I mean there is, but nothing anyone can do.
Im saving up to move out of here.
thank you though.
im staying inside tonight.

sarah2 · 10-03-2008, 04:52 PM

There ARE things we can do to help you, even if it's just talking over your options.
I used to work at a centre for people with no where else to go, I can get you information and try my best to help find somewhere for you to go.
Please let us at least talk about this with you?

ktma · 10-04-2008, 03:56 AM

we can def. talk about thing's but in all honesty im too scared to go to anyone. I just want to save money and move out without a lot of people knowing. Or move far away from here.

sarah2 · 10-04-2008, 12:05 PM

Ok, so when did you last see this guy?
Is there no one else you can turn to? Do you have family? Friends?
Why are you scared? There are shelters and places that can keep you safe. Have you ever thought of reporting this guy? (I know how terrifying a thought that is, but you need to realise that it is a real option for you)
How much do you need to move? And, how much do you have?
If it's gonna take you a long time, we can help find somewhere for you to go in the mean time?

nelvannya · 10-04-2008, 05:18 PM

Wow babe that's alot to cope with. So you are still living with him... do you have a battered womans shelter?
They are some of the best at finding money and getting you a new identity.

ktma · 10-05-2008, 05:04 PM

This is where its crazy, I dont live with him, He shows up randomly at night and basically blind sides me everytime.
I try to stay places at night or at least late enough so he won't stay out.
We have places but in all honesty im just too scared.

sarah2 · 10-05-2008, 09:28 PM

You don't need to be scared, they can protect you at these women's shelters, I've been places like that, and they're so lovely and get you all the legal advice you need and all the support and care you need.
Please, consider it. They can help you get this out of your life forever, then you won't have to be scared all the time.
I hope you're safe.