Apathy?

[nelvannya]

So there is this thing, this state I am going through. I feel blah, I feel of no assistance, I for once in my life do not want to help the silent girl in the class. I just don't care.
I am literally writing people off with "Social Darwinism".
I am really tired... and really stessed (something I am used to), but I cant handle it. All I am doing is crying, and I literally can not stop. Over things that normally I would be annoyed about, I am to the "angry tears".
And then there is this whole fucking Shawn thing. So I have deleted him from my phone, all text messages (sent and recieved), so that I could not text him if I got the urge. And I was doing well, even the other day when he asked me what I was doing I instantely replied, and said goodnight. Then deleted. Well today he starts at me again, and I just.... I take 2 steps forward and then he texts me. Which is upsetting because he can speak to me when out of school but not in... I actually told him that and of course no reply.
I have no time for anything, if I am not working, I am in theatre or ROTC or Speech. And once those are done I go do homework, I am so overburdened, and I do not know why.
I have dealt with asshole after asshole this week.
I am super worried about uni.
There is something up... I am just out of it

[OzzieJess]

first net time he msgs tell him you dont want to hear from him anymore. and it'd be nicer if he could just leave you alone.

maybe you need some time out. away from everything... which is hard.. but how bout taking a night off homework and just having a nice bath and watching a good movie or reading a good book. just chill out and let the world disappear until you can deal with it all.

[Markme]

hey tash, i think you know what im going to say when i talk about boys with you.
so i wont.

but i think that you should offload some of your schedule, you need time to yourself.
I know your going to reply with, i cant i have to do all this stuff,
but then it comes back to do you really want this problem to be faced and be over with or do you want to push it to the back of your mind?

[My Dreams killed me]

mhm, you even gave me the same advice Mark is giving you once when in a simular situation. Nev too much stress just isn't good, no matter how well you can (or think you can) manage it. Everyone needs breaks, Everyone needs time off. There really isn't an exception to that rule. Were only human and we can only take so much before we break ourselves down and loose control. I'd hate to see that happen and I think it would be in your best intrests just to slow down....

[louvitti]

crying, letting people take advantage of you and anger are signs of being depressed. See a Dr and examine if an antidepressant would be good or a therapist to speak to. My son has kids in school that always ask him for help in the newspaper staff. My son is Editor-in-Chief. W/O him, there would be no paper. But some of the kids, rather than learn on their own, ask him and try to get the credit. I don't lend out books to people because I have lost many. I tell my son to not give them the info or give them the wrong info. His school is competitive and not everyone is your real friend. Take a kick boxing class or Karate. These classes will teach and discipline you mentally to be assertive, not aggressive. You will develop a countenance that when people look at you, they will see you in a different light.
One night, coming home on the subway with my sax, a guy kept on coming over to me and checking me out. I was ready but did nothing. He sense something in me, the unknown, facial calmness. I was ready but he walked away. It is all appearance and attitude.
Ciao