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je ne comprends pas
so i'm round my cousin's. and he's got some mates over. and two of them were blates going out. and they were cuddling and kissing and stuff.
and i just felt empty inside.
thing is it wasn't my boyfriend who i was missing. It was my best guy mate. I wanted him there, to hold me in his arms, to kiss me on the cheek and whisper in my ear.
Me and my boyfriend were talking about our feelings toward each other the other day, turns out we don't love each other like we used to. We're still friends, it's just the whole "i love you" thing's gone.
It's like with marriage; after a while you just get sick of each other.
I kissed my best guy mate the other day, it was like walking on air. For a dare of course. At a sleepover. And then again, a few times more, not for dares. It just felt so damn right. Then we just lay there on my bed the entire night, him holding me. My boyfriend has never held me for more than about 2 minutes. My guy mate must have had me in his arms for more than 4 hours.
It was bliss.
And now people are having a go at me because i'm breaking my boyfriend's heart (apparently) when he feels the same about me, because I'M breaking up with HIM (apparently) and I brainwashed him into not liking me anymore. (Apparently.)
I hate people, sometimes. They stick their noses where they're not wanted and it annoys the hell out of me.
grr
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