alone

[Anonymous]

i have a group of friends that i get one quite well with...well usually but everynow and again theres a feud between us, always involving me but i dont know why im usually doin something wrong and made to seem like the bad guy in everything. despite having these friends that i do know are fine with hangin around with me (im not sure if they actually want to, just that they're ok with me being there) yet i still do feel very alone but im not sure why, i dont think i have a problem with them apart from one or two things that i cant really forgive which could be whats making me feel distant i keep thinking something will happen or someone will come along and take them away from me aswell. it could just be that i am tryin to prepare for if they do go coz if they do ill literally have no one else to hang abt with which is annoyin coz it puts more pressure on me to try and keep these friendships goin irrelavant of what happens, friendships shouldnt be a struggle but this is sometimes.

(this probs shoulda been in the problems and advice part)

[Markme]

Well...
i think this is nothing to do with your friends and all about issues you have with yourself.

you should really stop focusing on the future of what "could" happen.. sure, you guys could not be friends sometime in the future... but you "could" also die on the way to work tommorow.. or have a heart attack in 5 minutes.

Live life now, dont live it in the future.