Lonely

[xcrimsonxkissx]

I have a feeling this is going to be long....

So MArc and I where best friends for a year and then where togtehr for 6 months through some of my lowest points, he was my ooncstant rock and the only guy iv ever loved.

I ended it, i was to skrewed up to treat him the way thta i should.
He was always devoted to be so i guess i jsut presumed that one day we would be back togther and he'd never get another girlfriend.

Well 5 months later he did, Kerry.
I never liked her and we where never friends, and then for some reason after they'd been togther a few months we became close, we'd go out to gigs n stuff all the time and it was really weird, i realised she was nice and it wasnt her fault tht i had treated Marc so badly.

Then i found out they'd had sex (which Marc and i never did) which completely skrewed my head up cos i know im not as attractive as her or anythigng n im fat but i honestly thought he loved me enough to see through that and if that's the reason we didnt do it then i must just be disgusting and i dunno, she just seems liek the perfect gf compared to me, she's not skrewed up, not scared to meet his parents etc etc and even worse not only have i lost my boyfriend but we dont even speek anymore so iv lost my rock and my best friend.

I just miss him soo much, i saw him the otehr day for the first time in about 8 months and i realised from the way he talked and acted around me he's not "my Marc" anymore and it just kills so bad,
I wanna move on and show i can find someone else as good if not better than him and be happy. Im just not very good at it :/

And im so desperatlely lonly i just want someone. Someone to hug n hold and laugh with it just sucks and im fed up with it all atm. Thought id get it of my chest. Sorry this is so long.
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crimson xx

[Confubbled..]

you will find someone.some things just aren't meant to be.and some things are.it must hurt to see him with someone else especially when you care about him still.
but it will get easier.have some faith in yourself.it sounds like you were waiting him to come back to you.but now you gotta open up and let someone else in and care for you.
pm me if you ever wanna chat
xxx

[heartstrings]

i kind of know how you feel. what i told myself was that it would take time, even if it was heaploads of it, to get over him. i know it seems really ridiculously depressing but... things will change.

[CyberPhoenix Kay?]

I don't know how many times this has been said...but it's true, there ARE plenty of fish in the sea....none of them will be identical to your marc...everyone is different in some small way..which there is both an upside and a downside too..Downside being i know you want Marc...but the upside being you will find somone different...unique...maybe better suited to you..maybe somone you love as much as Marc maybe somone more...so don't give up and keep looking.

[Markme]

well for starters, YOU are not ugly and fat.
and i know you feel hopeless and lonely, but if you leave a guy for a few months, they will tend to move on.

i'm not sure on what i can say, ive kinda been in the same situation, except me and the girl tried to act like we didnt like each other, although we spent every weekend with each other, even when we had girlfriends or boyfriends.

this went on for a couple years.
moving on, its a hard thing to do. there is some people that you will never forget. but i guess all you can do is try to find some one else to take it off your mind.

its hard being lonely for some people, im more of a solitary person.

But i hope you find a way to move on.

[xcrimsonxkissx]

thanks everyone
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Il try n do what u say n keep a look out for someone new n keep positive.
Its just hard, i have lots of very thin. attractive friends. So when we go out teh guys see them and imleft on the side looking shy lol

[Betsybug0]

Originally Posted by xcrimsonxkissx
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thanks everyone
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Il try n do what u say n keep a look out for someone new n keep positive.
Its just hard, i have lots of very thin. attractive friends. So when we go out teh guys see them and imleft on the side looking shy lol

Okay, you gotta stop being so down on your bod! Alot of women feel the same way you do, "fat and ugly". The bottom line is that your face won't change. You are stuck with it. You can lose weight to get healthy, but outher than that you'll just have to accept who you are. I usted to feel the same way you do, but I stopped trying to please people - and I sure saved a lot of cash on makeup. Im sorry about you and Marc - but he's moved on an mabye it's time you do, too. Think of all the hotties your missing out on!

[Markme]

Crimson, i thought you looked rather pretty
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