I'm lonely

OzzieJess · 08-08-2008, 05:46 AM

So i got to the point now that i'm lonely... I remember fallen asleep in someone's arms and i miss that feeling... I had it last weekend. both Saturday and Sunday nite.. it was so nice.. to feel safe. and to feel cared for. To have his arms around me as i feel asleep and when i woke up on sunday morning, there he was with his arms still around me lol... But i just miss the feeling... I kinda miss him too.. but not as much as i miss the feeling...

I'm confused outta my mind... I want to be single and i want to stay single... i want to travel the world single with no strings attached to me... but at the same time... i just miss that feeling so much...

I miss feeling loved and safe and at home... cos i feel homeless... which is why i'm traveling so much... i'm searching for a home... somewhere that i'm happy all the time...

If it wasn't for that fact that i love my job, I'd be signing up for the navy today... And i know this isn't helping much... lol.. i feel so homeless... but happy... i am happy... just homeless.. and i know why... i just feel stupid. I can't have it both ways... i have already made my mind up about this... i already know that i'm staying single... I know it's the right thing to do for me. I just feel lonely. lol

CyberPhoenix Kay? · 08-08-2008, 05:49 AM

I miss cuddles too :( My gf lives 3 hours away..so i don't get to see her that often and so i miss cuddles as well as her alot :(

So i kinda know how you feel.

OzzieJess · 08-08-2008, 06:00 AM

I think i'm scared of all ideas of a relationship... i mean i was with glenn for 3 years... and i thought we'd be together till death do us part. but we wont be. and i'm ok with this now. It broke my heart but I'm happy now. I'm happy with who i am now. I know that this is me... And truthfully i want someone who is happy to sit down and be happy to watch me headbang like an idiot and tell the guy sitting next to him, that's my girl.. while he laughs at me...

but i like being single. I like partying with the guys, i like out drinking most of the them lol. i like dancing and being a fool.. i like flirting...
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I'm so torn with this. The only way i'd get into a relationship is if we shared the same love of traveling. but i'm not going to find a guy like that lol... no one could be like me lol... one of me is enough...

I want my Edward Cullen, The guy who would do anything for me.. anything... lol

Shinzy · 08-12-2008, 08:43 PM

Lol we'd all love him.
But some people believe life has a plan for us, that the best of things happen when we least expect it. Maybe on your travels you will find a dashing guy who loves the things you'd love to do. You never know.
We all love someone's arms around us, comforting us.
But you just have to let it go, open your arms and dive.
Keep the idea of relationships out of your head. Its time to think about you =]
Don't be so negative about not meeting anyone like you. There's a match for everyone, and i honestly believe that =]]

Sorry if i sound all over the place
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OzzieJess · 08-13-2008, 03:21 AM

Thank you... My mind keeps bouncing around ideas... lol.. i can't decide what i want... lol

so i am just going to stop breathe and just think about what I want...

it's all i can do right now.. but it'll be alright...