i just

don't know what to think anymore

i can't think straight about it

everything is all over the place

and one minute i'm so happy because i think it might actually be going somewhere

and at other times i just don't see the point anymore

i can deal with it the way it is just now

but i just wish i knew for sure

and then i could just get it all sorted and it would be fine

but at the moment my mind's working over time

and i just dont see where it's going

i don't want nothing but i'd rather i knew what was going on

ugh oh my god

i'm such a wreck

and last night i just wanted to hold you and make it better

i wanted to look after you like you knew i would but i couldnt

and i hate it

and ugh

could i have spraffed on for any longer