Feel like

Talking to someone, so I'll ramble to myself.
Aw man. I actually had kinda weird fun today. Got so fucked and now I'm all alone in my fucking room. I've been throwing shit around, broke a light. My sponsers a bit pissed off.
I always think, shouldn't there be more than this, there must be something, everyone seems to keep going on about it.
But you know, I don't even fucking recon there is! Ahah. I think I've fucking got it. Just have a laugh and fuck it. Fuck the consequences and shit like that. Fuck it all yeah? I'm feeling really pumped, like if some idiot came up to me I could just knock them out, I could defeat anyone who came in my path. I can defeat anything I want. I just don't fucking want to yet.
I'll dely it a while longer. Have some fun. Might go to school on Monday, see what it's like.
I'll get clean some day. Just not today. Fuck it all. I'm pumped, I ready for fucking anything, I'm ready for you, I'm ready for the whole fucking world. Let me have it.