Ever felt like no matter what you do or say it's just not good enough? haven't we all??
Ever felt like nothing you could do will make them see you?? Haven't we all??
Ever felt like you're not smart enough, not pretty enough, not perfect enough, not skinny enough, not loud enough, not quiet enough, not fun enough, not happy enough, not sad enough. like you'll never be enough?

I'm not enough! I'll never be enough!

OzzieJess

Meh, Ingore my last post... It meant nothing...

expect i have the words "Just Breathe" tattooed on my right wrist now.


I'm pretty much ova males again.

I have given myself a huge rule, I will not date/sleep with anyone i'm working with. It's too hard. Plus up here it's like Big brother. Everyone knows everything you do.

OzzieJess

I HAVE A BOYFRIEND..... lol kinda.. Well we'll just work on it i guess...

breathe jess. just breathe... I'm happy... cos i was happier... I was happy single and i'm happy not lol

OzzieJess

So if no one noticed almost all my titles are actually lyrics from songs that i have in my head.

today it's Love Game by Lady Gaga.

And it's so true. I want to kiss him. but im sure i'll miss him. and i can't miss him lol... so i wont kiss him

meh. I just wanna have some fun. I wanna hug someone and kiss someone i want human contact.

OzzieJess

So, I had a post about bring back the troops. and to say RIP to the people who have lost there life's.
I want to say Thank You to all the men and women serving.

But I want the war to be over. I want our troops sent home.
I live in a city that is based around a Navy base. My dad was navy, all my family friends dad's were Navy. One of my best friends and close enough to be sisters (S. sister) is in the navy. People I have partied with and hang out with are in the navy....

OzzieJess

I feel rather mehish today. I'm home. which I'm glad about, and the weather is just the way I like it. It's raining.

But i still feel Mehish. I'm scared and I'm over it.

I'm lying to myself about how I feel. bout how I'm dealing with a few things. I'm just lying to myself... :(

OzzieJess

So, I'm letting go of the old and welcoming the new. The past is the past, it's done it's happened, I can't change it now. It's over.

Goodbye past.

OzzieJess

It's just one of those weeks so far.

I feel so low, everything is piling up on me. I miss my friends. Who I really want to be there to help right now. And I'm here working. My Gran is sick, and I'm worried bout her. And I'm here working.

I'm feeling so tired, so run down, a bit alone. but nothing will every change that.

So I'm pushing myself to go out again tonight... not drinking... no... just out for dinner... cos i don't want to be alone. I just...

OzzieJess

lol... so i might be coming into a problem. I'm drinking again tonight. and again tomorrow night. I'm sure i'll be drinking again every weekend. and i could blame it on everyone at work cos i will be drinking with them. but meh. it's fun


So i got drunk on Tuesday night. I'll be drunk tonight and tomorrow night i'll probably be more then drunk lol.

OzzieJess

So a few posts back i mentioned Eli. And that i liked him. Well i'm not sure that i do. I'm confusing myself.

I think the only reason i like him is cos i know i cant have him. I always did like a challenge.

I really am just happy being single. I am learning alot about myself. Like I can do anything i want. That it's ok to be loud and annoying, it's ok to be me. I don't have to be as grown up as i've been pretending. I'm learning I dont need anyone. I can do this all...

OzzieJess