Still Breathing

so this is me... this is who i want to be right now...

Strong... strong enough that you wont see me cry... that doesn't mean i don't cry... it simply means i wont cry in front of you. in front of anyone. I wont allow myself to seem weak. i can get through life... i am strong.

Scared... scared of being me. scared of being alive. scared of living. scared of letting anyone in. scared of getting hurt again. Because the people who said i'll never hurt you, are the ones who have hurt me the most. the people i have let in close enough to see me have left and in that leaving have left holes in my heart and holes.

Alive... cos i wont be dead anymore. i wont give up. i wont let myself give up.

Me... i am me... nothing less nothing more... i will not be anything but this.