Breathe

In a round about way i'm doing ok.

I'm really tired today, and cos i'm running myself to the ground, or as my mum would say burning the candle at both ends, i'm starting to want to crawl up and just sleep for a couple of days.

I'm not liking myself very much at the moment. infact i hardly like myself. I'm not doing the things i'm meant to do. Sure my work is going well. But i'm being a bit lazy and havn't been doing my exercise for my knees. so i have to start that again.
I'm also meant to be losing weight, which i havn't for a while. but i guess atleast i haven't put any on. :( i'm just anger with myself. I'm not who i want to be.

I am eating better but i could do better.

I'm just so tired. I'm tired to hate myself right now. I just loathe myself... I hate what i look like. I need to lose weight... I mean i'm meant to be getting married i don't want to look like this in photos...

anyway i'm havnt enough right now.