So a few posts back i mentioned Eli. And that i liked him. Well i'm not sure that i do. I'm confusing myself.

I think the only reason i like him is cos i know i cant have him. I always did like a challenge.

I really am just happy being single. I am learning alot about myself. Like I can do anything i want. That it's ok to be loud and annoying, it's ok to be me. I don't have to be as grown up as i've been pretending. I'm learning I dont need anyone. I can do this all...

OzzieJess

I'm feeling all over the place right now. I'm trying so hard to keep it to myself. I smile at the right times, laugh at the right times but i just feel strange. I'm tired. I'm over alot of things that i've been trying to control. And i'm learning there isn't much i can control. Which i think is way Im controlling what i eat so much. Since Monday i've been so bad. I've stopped eatting Breakfast and dinner, and the most i normally eat is fruit. which is better then nothing i guess... I just want some...

OzzieJess