*deep sigh*

Monday is going to be my last day of grade 12 classes ever.
I should be super excited, but im more quiet, sadened and numb.
When i think back over this last year, it has been very eventful, restarting school in the second term, I had all the teachers one could dream of having.

I can see i am going to miss "the gates of hell"..."or "the point of no return", i had many interesting names that i made up during the early hours...

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Ive always thought alot, im rather an intellectual thinker when it comes to doing anything. I can be spur of the moment, but im also very aware of the consequences.

I've always considered myself quite hard on myself when it comes to my own life and whats happened alot the way, as if it was my fault or there was a way i could have avoided the unnavoidable.
It gets quite hard to bare when im alone and there is that time to think, where memories flood your mind, slowing down every...

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Friends are never who they seam to be these days, they always have a secret or something they arent telling you. Just when you think you have gotten to know some one, they turn around and give you an obstacle that you dont understand... it makes you think, who the fuck are you?

Just when you start to think that you can really trust some one, they give you a reason to doubt them. This is just another reason for me to never let people in past that barrier... if cant trust some one ive...

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Life.
I think that all of us now and then question life, we question why we are here, why certain things happened to us and why we do the things we do.
In my short life time of close to 18 years ive learnt alot, ive changed alot and boy ive grown up a heck of alot, The older you get.. the more complicated life becomes and thats just where it starts.
I believe that most people like to make life as complicated...

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After having a chat with a good friend of mine today, ive realised that deep down im quite afraid of what people will think of my feelings. I said to her "When you speak to me, you will get my thoughts and oppinions on something, but you wont get my feelings". She said to me " i want to get to know the full version of you".. I thought about this, i appear to be a very open person you ask me a question i will give you a truthful answer, but then i thought further, when some one...

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