Deep down

After having a chat with a good friend of mine today, ive realised that deep down im quite afraid of what people will think of my feelings. I said to her "When you speak to me, you will get my thoughts and oppinions on something, but you wont get my feelings". She said to me " i want to get to know the full version of you".. I thought about this, i appear to be a very open person you ask me a question i will give you a truthful answer, but then i thought further, when some one asks me something and i dont want them to hear exactly what im feeling, i will give them an answer, it will be truthful, it wont be anything close to the answer i should have given.

I also find that im abit of a pessimist, things are good.. but when i look at things that i know are less certain or if there really isnt a point in it, i dont have a good view on it. Like relationships or a dodgy business partner.

hmm im very new to this blogging thing and i think this has really turned into a senseless ramble rather than a blog. Hopefully as i progress i will get better. but for now, im off.