Thinking and my friends
Posted 10-09-2007 at 02:23 PM by Markme
Ive always thought alot, im rather an intellectual thinker when it comes to doing anything. I can be spur of the moment, but im also very aware of the consequences.
I've always considered myself quite hard on myself when it comes to my own life and whats happened alot the way, as if it was my fault or there was a way i could have avoided the unnavoidable.
It gets quite hard to bare when im alone and there is that time to think, where memories flood your mind, slowing down every single moment i've experience so that its as if im reliving them. Theres no problem in reliving things over, sometimes it can be healthy for you to remember things that you have forgotten about, but i find that my feelings are the things that i have tried to forget and pushed them deep down inside of me.
And feelings have never been a good part of me, i usually become enraged because i dont want to remember them and i start smashing things and yelling.
i believe if you can see your self some where in the future your already miles ahead of everyone else around you.
Make as many friends as you can on the way up because on the way down they are all going to remember you and the good or bad that you have done to them...
To me a dream is just poorly planned life style.. all you have to do is add the missing bits and your all set.
I've always considered myself quite hard on myself when it comes to my own life and whats happened alot the way, as if it was my fault or there was a way i could have avoided the unnavoidable.
It gets quite hard to bare when im alone and there is that time to think, where memories flood your mind, slowing down every single moment i've experience so that its as if im reliving them. Theres no problem in reliving things over, sometimes it can be healthy for you to remember things that you have forgotten about, but i find that my feelings are the things that i have tried to forget and pushed them deep down inside of me.
And feelings have never been a good part of me, i usually become enraged because i dont want to remember them and i start smashing things and yelling.
i believe if you can see your self some where in the future your already miles ahead of everyone else around you.
Make as many friends as you can on the way up because on the way down they are all going to remember you and the good or bad that you have done to them...
To me a dream is just poorly planned life style.. all you have to do is add the missing bits and your all set.
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you never forget the way something or someone makes you feel. i think thats what has the most lasting impression on people. you dont necessarily remember events or people because of what they were, but because of how they made you feel. i think pushing your feelings deep down inside of you is sometimes pointless. as its most likely that no matter how long you try, you're still gonna remember that feeling. whether its a good feeling or a bad feeling, its going to be there. imo thats why people who are a lot more open about their feelings find it easier to get over things. its usually worse to start off with, but once you let it out, although you're gonna remember how you felt, its relieving.
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Posted 10-10-2007 at 09:13 AM by !-nessica-!
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