Over the years we have had many good times together, i've enjoyed all the times ive spent with the friends i used to have.
I cant begin to describe how hurt i am, how badly i feel because of the way ive been treated by you people.

I havnt been cruel or unloyal to any of you ever, but the gratitude you show back with back stabbing me, standing me up, ditching me and making me feel like crap is not something i want in return for how i treat you all.
I can no longer count...

Markme

Gah, i hate being unwell.
My boss is going to be annoyed because he has given me full time hours and i cant work because im too sick..
I went in today in an effort as a peace offering, i said i will work till you can call some one else in. But do you think he even bothered to go call some one? Nup he didnt.
So i told him, i was going to leave by 8am if he didnt find some one, because my head was thumping with a migrain, my joints hurt and i felt immensely weaker than normal.....

Markme

*deep sigh*

Monday is going to be my last day of grade 12 classes ever.
I should be super excited, but im more quiet, sadened and numb.
When i think back over this last year, it has been very eventful, restarting school in the second term, I had all the teachers one could dream of having.

I can see i am going to miss "the gates of hell"..."or "the point of no return", i had many interesting names that i made up during the early hours...

Markme

Now your probably asking your self "Wtf is he talking about?".

Well operation get big is a scheme i have got planned for myself, i have made a challenge to myself to gain as much muscle weight as i can before schoolies starts, which is 22 days away.
I've always loved going to the gym, and having muscular strength and endurance.

So whats really going on is, ive gathered all my knowledge on how to gain muscle with the equipment i have and ive combined with...

Markme

School, we all love to hate it.
I especially disliked school for my first 10 years; it wasn’t a pretty experience for me. You find that along the way people actually do grow up though, they realise they were being complete idiots and they change to fit in with society.
I really think that for the first 7 years of our schooling are pretty useless in regards to trying to learn stuff... sure we learn our times tables, how to read write and spell... but its nothing compared to the monster...

Markme

Ive always thought alot, im rather an intellectual thinker when it comes to doing anything. I can be spur of the moment, but im also very aware of the consequences.

I've always considered myself quite hard on myself when it comes to my own life and whats happened alot the way, as if it was my fault or there was a way i could have avoided the unnavoidable.
It gets quite hard to bare when im alone and there is that time to think, where memories flood your mind, slowing down every...

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Friends are never who they seam to be these days, they always have a secret or something they arent telling you. Just when you think you have gotten to know some one, they turn around and give you an obstacle that you dont understand... it makes you think, who the fuck are you?

Just when you start to think that you can really trust some one, they give you a reason to doubt them. This is just another reason for me to never let people in past that barrier... if cant trust some one ive...

Markme

Life.
I think that all of us now and then question life, we question why we are here, why certain things happened to us and why we do the things we do.
In my short life time of close to 18 years ive learnt alot, ive changed alot and boy ive grown up a heck of alot, The older you get.. the more complicated life becomes and thats just where it starts.
I believe that most people like to make life as complicated...

Markme

After having a chat with a good friend of mine today, ive realised that deep down im quite afraid of what people will think of my feelings. I said to her "When you speak to me, you will get my thoughts and oppinions on something, but you wont get my feelings". She said to me " i want to get to know the full version of you".. I thought about this, i appear to be a very open person you ask me a question i will give you a truthful answer, but then i thought further, when some one...

Markme

I'm amazed that i got these blogs working so fast!

Lets just hope that every one learns how to use them!

Today for me has been an ok day, i got us the blog system i wanted to get, ive relaxed a little and had a fairly alright day eating and listening to music.

im suppose to be in the middle of organising a party for tonight, but i cant be bothered actually getting off my ass right now. But tonight will be good, im playing four kings again and i will probably...

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