fucked up,

can't sleep,

can't eat,

can't <i>live</i> for want of him.

and when i get to see him,

i can't even think of anything good to say.

so i find myself on here,

at half midnight,

doing fuck all because nobody's posting.

and being unpredictable and "grouchy".

damn.

i'm more like my dad than i thought.

but i <i>miss</i> him.

so damn much that i want to break down and cry.

i'm not eating properly, i'm not thinking properly..

how am i going to survive when he doesnt come to youth group any more?

2 terms.

That's all he's got left.

That's all <i>i've</i> got left before my soul departs with him.

i hope by the end he knows i like him,

even if it's only as a friend.

damn, i miss him.