Things going down hill again

Everything has been shit lately, Stephine hasn't been around because her moms out of town so shes staying at a friends house. My best friend always use to lisen to me whenever i needed her and now all she cares about is TT or Flyff. I want to cut again, I'v been trying sooo hard not to think about it but i'v been wanting to cut sooo badly the past few days. I hate my parents exspeally my dad, I'm starting to get along more with my mom tho. I'm sick of all the fighting and all the yelling.