iv been thinking a lot about life lately. i just decided im gonna write it all down.

my relationships with people around me have affected me a lot lately. in the past year iv changed more than i think i ever have before. friendships are weird for me at the moment, because they're different to what they normally are. im not close to any of my regular friends anymore, but i notice whenever any of themhave a major problem, they still come and talk to me about it. i dunno why that is....

!-nessica-!

wow i've had a good couple of days! nothing too spectacular, but i've been with good people, and its been nice

on tuesday i went to brisbane to see one of my friends that i hadnt seen in ages. hahahah ohhh some funny stories. then mark and i brought her back to the coast and we fed fishies and got free subway because we waited for like FOUR hours. hahah bit of an exaggeration. maybe 45 minutes. then i dropped them home because i was tired annnd i went to bed

woke...

!-nessica-!

i forgot to wake up this morning.. it was entertaining. coz i was late to work
its the first time in ages iv been able to sleep.. iv had like 4 hours sleep every night and i expected the same thing to happen last night buttttt i slept for 13 hours.

work was good fun. i was in a good mood and there were good people to talk to. i went to get petrol and had to wait like 20 friggin minutes for it to work it was so gay. i hate waiting.

im listening to the news...

!-nessica-!

i thought a lot about my life and the people in it today.. confused about why people do things, sick of not being noticed, being taken advantage of because im a nice person... that kinda stuff. i dont wana be the person that knows everything anymore. im growing out of my friends and the people i do wana be friends with make it difficult. im angry but i dont know who to talk to.

its the first time in ages my mood hasnt lifted after talking to certain people..people keep inviting me...

!-nessica-!