[sarah2]

Haha, thank you, and believe me, you don't know the bloody half of it! That's probly a good thing though, I doubt you would be so keen to talk to me if you knew everything I've done.
And I'm sure you do understand, whether it's drugs or relationships, deaths or family, or whatever - shit happens to everyone. I've just had a bad few years, it'll pick up some time!
But that's behind me I guess, except things keep popping up from my past which is fucking annoying, I was out for a walk today, and an old...buisness partner came up to me and started yelling, like screaming at me, the bastard. Thank god we were on a relitivley busy street because I've seen this guy go mental before and he's caused me some serious damage before. He says I still owe him fucking money!
It's such a joke, because, ok, I may have robbed him a quid or two, but I don't HAVE these hundreds of pounds.I don't have the energy to be hounded like this. The only way I can get that money fast is to, find my father, where ever the fuck he is, and get it from him, which means all kinds of complications, or work for this guy again to pay him back - I can't do that again.
I could get another job, but, fucking hell, where? And how? AHHHHHHHHH.
Why does shit you do always come back and bite you in the arse?
I was so desperate when I worked for him, and even more desperate when I stole from him, like it wasn't fucking degrading me enough, it still haunts me, the shit that I was willing to do.
I'm feeling shit and tired and ill and fucking depressed enough as it is without all this shit again. I'm just managing to hold it together and I just never want to see these people again.
What do I do!?