[Shinzy]

Heyy.. My first proper post.

Well, i don't know whats going on. It's not a problem of a sort but it's just..
*sighs*

I have a boyfriend. We're sooo happy, i mean really happy. I've had bad relationships like anyone does and they usually dont last long.. but this is so much more. We've been together 8 months now, (9 on the 30th
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) and yeah, we've had a few bumpy roads (mainly my control freak father) but we've stayed strong and though its been 8 months we havent even started the lives we wanted so there's alot going in this. So far, ive said nothing but good but there's this little nag in my head.
An ex.. well, i dont really know whether to call him that. He lives in another country and i never met him but we were girlfriend and boyfriend so to speak.
We lost contact after i said it wouldn't work and we've recently been speaking again.. he has a new girlfriend and he's been with her 9 months. Great i thought. But.. its not so great. I still have huge feelings... urges to meet him. We could meet as friends but im afraid it'd be more on my part. He says he still loves me.. which makes me happy. its wrong i know. I just get so drawn. He's a very close friend and knows pretty much everything about me. And it makes me wonder if im too young to settle down and thoughts just go on from there....
I really love my boyfriend but i don't want to stop talking to my ex.. but i dont see a way round it.. to stop the urges and the feelings.. Who says that ex's cant be friends?
*sighs*