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Ahhhhhhhhhh
Fucking hell.
What do you do when you have absolutley nothing to live for except for the one thing that will fuck you up?
I actually think I am going to die if I don't let some of my frustration out, so, I'm sorry for this, but I've just got to stop grinning and bearing it and start fucking complaining or else I'll go mad.
I fucking hate methadrone, this piece of shit heroin substitute they've got me on, I hate it!
And fuck me, I hate how people are finally proud and happy of me, oh well done Sarah, you're getting clean, I'm so HAPPY for you. No you're fucking not, you're happy for YOU, because now you don't have to deal with me being a shit all the time.
I have nothing, no energy, no life in me. Now, what the fuck do I have to live for? Another methadrone hit and a fucking STD. Wonderful.
I hate the way the world works. This isn't working, but I can't let anyone know that because I'll sound so fucking un grateful. But in truth, all I want to do is escape all the therapists and NA sessions of smiling, hopeful faces and go and die in a hole of drug wonderment.
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RIP Seb
Away, He's gone away
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So, please, please, please, let me get what I want this time
Heroin, be the death of me,
Heroin, its my wife and its my life,
Then I'm better off dead.
And I guess I just don't know.
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