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just random venting.
so it's my birthday soon, that's meant to be good right?? Well I thought it was going to be but now I just don't even want to do anything for it. I've decided I hate summer time. It's stupid. If I don't get a job I'm gonna be a mess for the summer. No money. And what friends I had have surprised me and turned out to be really nasty. I have really found out who my real friends are. My closest friend though lives 4 hours away from me, I know its not too much, but it's not like I can just go call to him whenever I want. And I can't go see him that often because I don't have the money. And if I get a job I won't have the time.
I haven't talked to anybody about everything in my life in so long. I miss having someone I can trust. I think that's why I'm spending more time here at exasco. It's somewhere that I know will always be there.
I think I'm just feeling sorry for myself. Just needed to write it all down.
*sigh*
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'My heart has been broken and bruised and I'm pretty f*cking confused and I always expect to lose.
If I talk too much and laugh too loud it's because I'm trying to forget that I'm sad, cos things can get pretty bad.
But I'd like to think that someday I'll find you somewhere going nowhere and we can go there together.'
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