[Elyted]

I believe her now. She was asleep. I messed up badly, I don't know if I can make it through this now but i'm going to have to.. my cousin just had twins today.. both girls and she needs me there. It would be horrible if I died during a time like this. But it's just so hard.. to be honest, this is the first time i've truly considered killing myself. I have honestly never felt worse in my entire life. I love her.