[sarah2]

I know what you mean, but you're only bored because you'r crowding your mind with shit. Because you've given yourself only two choice, you feel like you've exhausted all the rest, like, do drugs and only be bored sometimes and fuck yourself up, or be bored all the time. But you know it's not like that.
When I got off drugs the first time, I just hated life, like, seeing it all clearly again, you really realise how shit the world is when you're not peeping out through a haze of opiates, I couldn't go out to a bar, or see my mates, because they all used. I just sat at home smoking and listening to music, it was the dullest thing ever. But then I started getting off my arse and finding things to do. Life dosn't just hand you stuff, you have to go and find them. I started volenteering and I got into contact with people, I spent days sitting at home with my sponser and watching movies and making cakes and just having a laugh again. Give it a go, it takes time to find, but you have to take the time and do it, you can't just give it a short go and think you've covered it all, you havn't.
You're older now, you have plently of oportunities open to you, don't ignore them.
And boredom is usually an excuse we use, like, I was bored and miserable when I was sober, and now I'm fine? Hmm... Don't ever get bored and miserable doing drugs all the time? I sure do, it sucks, realise that IT SUCKS! you don't want to be doing this forever do you? Because honestly, it gets soooo boring.