[sarah2]

I've figured something out recently.
Doing drugs actually makes me more miserable, it makes you miserable too.
That's what you need to get out of to be happy when you're sober. you think you're not happy just because of your life? Well, if you're life revolves around drugs and getting drunk, well, there's your problem.
You make the choice. It's not an easy one, fuck I know that more than most. But you're not hopeless, you have so much, you just can't see it.
Do something different, life isn't pointless, how can you expect to see the point, the worth, the beauty in life when you're clouding your mind and your vision all the time? You're tying a blindfold round your eyes every time you get pissed or get high, there will come a day when you can't see any wonder, when you can't deal with life, when you can't handle time and you can't live another day - when you are drunk or really high, where do you go then huh? When getting fucked dosn't make it go away anymore, there is the nothing. Don't go there, don't join me here where beauty is completly ruined and getting high isn't even enough to cover it all up anymore, because what do I do now? I've got nothing to make it go away now, it's too late, so don't get this far, don't let yourself.