[nelvannya]

Love this is going to sound quite harsh. And in no means am I trying to be rude...
You have to choose that it is time to get out. You have to say "Look this bloody hurts, I dont want to do this right now. But in the long run this is what is best."
You yourself has to come to a consious decsion that you will no longer be with him. There is nothing more sad to see someone so attached to another person that they essentially abuse themself. I hope that you find your will, determination, and love for yourself to say "This SUCKS, but enough is enough."
NO one else can do that for you, no amount of advice can help you... You seem to have been dealing with this issue for a while, and ultimately the final step is in your hand. WE WILL ALWAYS be here to provided advice, assistance, and to cheer you on. But there is a point that Exasco and others can no longer help you... sometimes you have to help yourself.

I do apologize if that sounded mean, I didnt mean it to.