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Help...Advice
Fuck. I'm drunk, sorry everyone, but right now this feeling i have...it needs input.
When I'm high, or sober, ect....
1) I'm NOT happy to be on this planet
2) Life is pointless
3) Everything is worthless
4) I want to get away, but I can't
When I'm DRUNK...
1) I'm HAPPY to be here
2) I can handle time and waiting
3) The idea of living a day doesn't bother me
4) I could LEAVE my boy friend.
What should I do!?
When I'm sober I can live with him, the world is not so scary with him, I'm not so scared of existance. When I think of being apart from him... I have my biggest fear BORDEM/NOTHING TO DO.
When I'm drunk or REALLY REALLY high I'm fine, it's ok, I can leave him, I can survive, it will be ok.
Without, i'm hopeless.
How do i get out...what do i do?!
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