[Broken_mind]

im really starting to worry about myself and i know it seems like im constantly moaning on here but im just at such a low point and i honestly have nobody to talk to.

I feel no use in my life anymore.
I have nothing to aim for and there is nothing i want to do in my life.
I think about suicide almost every day, i know i wouldnt but i wish that i could.
I spend all my days drinking now just to try and numb the pain cos that way i dont think
I just go to bed earlier and earlier because when im asleep and dreaming it seems to be the only time im actually happy.
The thought of having to carry on whatim doing just seems pointless but i have no choice.
I wish i wasnt so pathetic and useless.
Stupid thing is now tho i might be pregnant which is not fair.
Its always girls that have to deal with the side effects.
I know i wouldnt keep it but even still its odd thinking there could be another human being growing inside of me.

I wish i could drive so badly cos i would get out of my house and just be able to go away and think about things.

sorry for the stupid long thread.