[My Dreams killed me]

Well, I relized that I had a bunch of my old "emo" poems just lying around here and I decided that hey, let's just post them....so I did. Um the first one that will pop up is the first one I wrote, and then from there they are in no paticular order, some of the stuff I have is being left out for suckage purposes, If you notice, some of this was during a period that I was going through a very very rough time in a relationship. Some were after we broke up. Some were when we got back together, and then I stopped after I recived a..."crushing blow", but I've taken up the art agian recently, so here for you viewing pleasure is A Poetry Booklet (Of sorts) (Sorry for making the intro so dam long, but I feel a background story tends to make these a little more understandable)

1.Judge Tenderly Of Me"
Judge tenderly of me
As you can plainly see
Today I lost my war
And now I'm crushed

Judge tenderly of me
It's not so hard to be
So outspoken or out beaten
But never hushed

Judge tenderly of me
A man with lack of glee
So sad and filled with void
But never rushed

Judge tenderly of me
A boy who never flee's
Still with childhood dreams
That were never much


These next three are acually connected, though I didn't relize that till much later

2.The Question
I only loved once
Eternal pain came forth
Did I just care to much
Or...Was it just her touch

Depression once insnared
for now I am at peace
I hope it will last
and not dissolve so fast

I slowly feel like standing up
Taking a chance
Following my soul
but is that my true goal?

Or is it just go by and by
and remember the good times
I wish just to be whole
does that mean going against my soul?

3.My Sickness
I knew it would come back in time
But why, oh why, so soon
Is it the one in front of me
Or is it the one inside of me

I found the claws agian
Digging in my heart
A lost voice
The one that wants pain

I feel it
Slowly
Everything fades to black
and I'm left with nothing but darkness

I can't even look
Is it simply fear
or is it regret

4.

Feels like it's getting so dam old
The pain that feels it's something untold
I want to make it known
The Pain that goes untold

Feels my heart's turing to stone
from the pain that goes untold
forms a crevice in my soul
the pain that waits unknown

Something bitter
nothing sweet
A pain that waits on hold
Attacks you when your low
The pan that goes untold

These next two are also related


6.Insomnia
The night so deep
I want to sleep
My minds awake
my body aches

The room so dark
Lack of heart
Feel so dead
In my bed

4 PM
still not tired then
wishing for
a nice loud snore

but I can't sleep
and not even sheep
will help me find
a rested mind

7.Dreams of Nothing
When I dream...I feel dead
Lack of existance
No heart
No soul
Just Black and dark
When I dream I fall apart

I feels like being wiped away
those 8 hours tween night and day
Dreams in light are full of delight
Dreams at night are not so right

I'd love to have a simple dream
To live with passion yet unseen
But no...I'm stuck here in the dark
Alone in my dreams without a heart.



That will be all for now, because this is gettin, quite long, I'll post more later.